I am pissed!

The good: I WAS down 1.6 yesterday at WW. 4 weeks=down 4.4. I have also made it to the next level of points, 25 instead of 26.

I need to vent now. Thank you internets for listening to me, and thank God I never shared this blog address with anyone I know IRL.

The not so good: I have been extremely pissed off at work since Monday over something that a co-worker asked if I would do, I was (am still) overwhelmed with projects that I deem important, I told her no (I can count on one hand how many times I have said no at work in FIVE YEARS) and my boss came to me later in the day and told me this other project was more important that my job and I was the only one available to do it as the project was due on Friday. I am pissed for a few reasons:

1. I NEVER say no. I am always there for my co-workers when they need help. EVEN for those that don’t ever do work.
2. Since I never say no, when I do say no, I expect my co-workers to understand that I must be overwhelmed and to respect my own stress tolerance evaluation.
3. Others said no to this project, and the response to them was “OK”. I say no, and the response was “Nope, you do it”. WTF?
4. The person who was originally given the job, ON MARCH 6TH NO LESS, decided she was too busy to do it on FRIDAY of last week. It really makes me angry when others are not responsible enough to plan out their time and pass shit on to others at the last F’ing minute.

I think I am most mad at this since last year I was told that I had to find a new job because my department decided to downsize my job. I scrambled and found a new position in another department and started in January. My old department is mostly staffed in our headquarters, I am in a regional office. While they are nice people, they do not help the regional offices. I can’t even count how many times they have said no- TONS of time. Our work is not deemed important to them (seeing an organizational pattern?) The project I was forced to work on came from my old department. I feel like “so I am good enough to work on your M-F’ing project now, but I was not good enough then?!?!” 

The other thing that REALLY makes me mad, is that when I contacted my old department for some information (after I had worked on the project for a whole day), they pretty much said they would have worked on it if they would have been asked.

Such is my F’ing life right now. I am tired, I am stressed out, I am having severe diarrhea (Sorry, TMI), and I am going to end up working on two very important projects all weekend that are due Tuesday. Next up, a severe illness that is from my immune system being warn down from too much stress. Pity party for one, please.

OK, now I am done venting.

Anyway, with all this stress, I can’t believe that I am not stress eating. Amazing – usually I would be knee deep in cheese fries.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Morning
2  item egg white(s)	0.5
1  serving Starkbucks non fat no whip 2 pump mocha, 3 pump vanilla	5
6  oz Strawberry nonfat yogurt	1
32  oz water	0
Subtotal	6.5
Midday
1  6-inch Subway Club® Sandwich (with less than 6g of fat)	6
1  tsp Vinegar	0
1  package Apple Slices	0
1  Tbsp Light Mayonnaise	1
32  oz water	0
1  small clementine	0.5
Subtotal	7.5
Evening
8  fl oz Diet Coke	0
1  serving steamfresh brown rice	3
1/3 cup canned green peas	0.5
1/3 cup cooked green beans	0
1/3 cup cooked corn kernels	0.5
1/3 cup fresh lemon juice	0
1  tsp lemon pepper	0
1/2 breast uncooked boneless, skinless chicken breast	3
32  oz water	0
1  tsp olive oil	1
Subtotal	8
Snacks
1  item Chocolate	1
2  Rice Krispie Treats	2.5
Subtotal	3.5
Food POINTS values total used	25.5
Food POINTS values remaining	0
Activity
0 min 6694 Pedometer Steps	0
0 min 2252 Pedometer Steps	1
Activity POINTS values earned	1
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