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…and I thought Day 4 was bad…

HA!

I only slept about 3 1/2 hours last night.

I can’t seem to sleep the night before bootcamp anymore. I toss, turn and generally worry all night long.

Most of the worry comes from my imagination running wild — I imagine my alarm not going off, or being late because it is snowing out, or … and all the sudden it is 3 hours before I have to be at bootcamp and I have to weigh my options: sleep or just get up and do something else until it is time to leave for bootcamp. Alot of the time it is the latter. Last night I ended up with my ipod listening to my meditation mp3 and it helped me relax enough to fall asleep with my ear buds still in my ears.

I have had this insomnia before. When I was gainfully employed, Sunday nights/Monday mornings were horrendous. I would fret about everything under the sun on Sunday night, climb into bed late, worry all night about the work I had to do the next morning, and barely get any sleep. I would be exhausted the next day and my worries would come true since I would barely be able to get any work done.

This pattern went on for months. It would only happen on Sunday nights.

I finally saw my doctor/GP and told her what was going on. She told me it was anxiety and that yoga, meditation and having a notebook by my bed to write down my worries should help. She also gave me a Rx for a low dose of Valium to try if the other “natural” things didn’t work. I tried all the things she offered, but ended up taking the Rx each Sunday night after I meditated.

WOW.

Valium is awesome. It took the edge off, and allowed me to not give two craps about what I thought might come my way at work in the morning. I would wake up on Monday refreshed and ready to go.

I only took the Rx for a few weeks until my pattern was broken.I continued with meditation and the notebook for a while too.

I tell you this because I think another trip to the GP is in the cards for me. I hate that my bootcamp experience is not the best it can be because I am not getting the best sleep I can get.

Anyway, I got off on a tangent. Bootcamp today was alot of arm and ab work. Today was the last day for “newbies” to ‘cheat” during some of the exercises, so Thursday is gonna be brutal, I can feel it in my bones.

I can’t even tell you what exactly we did in class today, I am so tired. I know some mountian climbers were in there because they almost killed me. I knew something was wrong with me when we started doing ab work because usually that is my favorite/the stuff I do best– I could barely do 3 or 4 reps without stopping.

Sweat was pouring off of me — literally running down my face. That has never (in my few years of working out) happened to me. I am a “glower”. Not a “drowner”.

Anyway, I have a day “off” tomorrow to get some rest and try out Fatina’s treadmill workout.

Anyone else have issues with a “crap” workout because they have a restless night?

Have a restful and healthy Tuesday!

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*Could also be the beginning of a visit from Aunt Flo or a bigger than normal (but still healthy) dinner last night.