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Today is Day 6–VERY close to the end of the first week. Only tomorrow to go before I weigh in on Saturday afternoon.

If I am going to be 100 percent truthful–and I am– it was tough to be good.

REALLY tough.

But I REALLY did it.

Today was kind of a mixed up day. Usually I am walking at night to catch up for the day of walking that I missed due to being busy. Well, this morning I decided I was going to buck up, get up early and walk.

So I did.

I got 1 hour and 10 minutes in this morning.Before 11am. Yes I did.

PROUD OF ME!

Then I went to lunch with a former colleague hung out with a former colleague at my old office eating the lunch I packed for myself and after carefully crafted a cover letter for a job I am applying for (that, by the way, I am VERY excited about. Fingers crossed). This included 20 minutes of walking as I used the CTA.

My friend N then picked me up in the rain to go to a 4:10pm showing of Leap Year*. Two things wrong with this:

• POPCORN POPPING IS THE DEVIL’S FAVORITE SMELL.
• Guess who forgot her daily snack at home?

I ordered an unsweetened ice tea and a large water. First time that I can remember that I watched a movie in a theater with no popcorn.

N ordered Nachos**.

Throughout the movie, the hunger thunder coming from my tummy was alarming. Thank goodness we were the only people in the theater***.I actually had a hard time following the movie a few times. I also had a hard time coming up with the right word for things my mind was so foggy. I was losing it a bit.

I was SO HUNGRY- more hungry that I had been in a long time. The meals I have been eating -while small(er than I am used to but what I should be eating)- have been filling. I have been eating around every 3 hours and have not had to really worry about a rumbly tumbly.

Today was different. I was weak and crabby.

After the movie, we were headed to Target to pick up a few things and I persuaded N to stop at Whole Foods so I could pick up a snack — Chobani Greek Yogurt.

I was supposed to have it in the morning, and I didn’t. Though it was about 6pm and I should have been eating dinner, I knew we would be atleast another 2 hours before getting home and I WAS NOT GOING TO EAT CRAP FOR DINNER.

So I got a Chobani cup, a spoon, and a handful of walnuts from the bulk area, and about 5 minutes after eating I could function like a human again. I could think again!Thank you 14 grams of protein!

When we got home from Target, I immediately threw a 6oz fillet Mignon on the grill along with 2 chicken breasts for tomorrow. Broccoli and asparagus (1/2 cup each) went in the microwave to steam and 15 minutes later I had a wonderful ON MEAL PLAN dinner.

It was tasty, fantastic and hit the spot.

I am not sure what I will be eating next week– the meal plan is a tiny bit late due to Andrea’s schedule, but I hope to see it tomorrow (especially since I am kinda tired of what we have been eating this week and hope we get to incorporate a few more complex carbs this week – like sweet potatoes.)

So other than today, I have been “good” and stayed on plan. I have walked 2 hours or more 5 of the 6 days.

Do I feel any different yet? Not really, other than the blisters on my feet.

I am trying to mitigate my weigh in on Saturday. I am VERY WORRIED that I will either stay the same or lose a very small amount of weight this first week and be discouraged. The way I keep myself from getting my hopes up is to not think about the excitement I will have if I lose 10 lbs. I reign myself in an HOPE AMONG HOPE that I lose 2lbs.

That way, when I lose 5lbs, I am not disappointed.

I am concerned that I treat myself this way and won’t let myself get excited until I know the final outcome. But I know where it comes from:  I have had quite a few hard life lessons that have taught me to be overly cautious when it comes to “dreams” coming true.  I am trying to figure out a compromise in my head– any ideas please let me know.

Onward and upward- I still have 30 minutes left to walk today– I need to get crackin!

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*Movie was Meh. Typical ro-com with a predictable ending. Better to wait for the rental.

**I told her to order whatever she wanted after she protested. Why does she have to feel deprived?

***4:10pm, ro-com, and see asterisk #1.